Jeez, it's been a while... I'm sorry for that, I'll get into why I've been so inactive in a moment. But first, I'd like to thank everyone for the Birthday wishes, It does mean a lot that people still wish me a happy birthday despite not having been active for almost 2 years.
So I guess the rest of this Journal could just be considered an update of sorts, of both my life and what's been going on. It's probably going to be a little long and ranty, so if you don't wanna read the whole thing there is a TLDR at the bottom.
Anyway. Some of you may know this, but way back before I started my Hiatus I was hired on by a small time game company making sprites. Which is good, kinda...
There was aspirations for a full scale sprite based RPG game that would be entirely custom sprites, I was hired on along with 5 other pixel artists to make all the assets for this game from scratch. I had been making sprites almost non-stop for the game for almost 3 months, and at this point I was honestly beginning to get burned out. Around this time is when I had learned that throughout the course of these 3 months, there went from 5 pixel artists to just me... I had been picking up the slack for the 4 that quit, and I was not being compensated for my extra work. And that's when I started to question things.
Shortly after I had tried to get in contact with the lead developer, I had learned that the lead dev had moved out of the country and passed on the project to 3 of the co-developers, and they had been asking me for assets that they had not even been putting into use, I was told that they wouldn't even start developing the game 'til I had finished everything they ask me to do (Which at this point they were just having me make and re-make whatever the hell they wanted for no apparent reason other than seemlying just to keep my busy...). So I did the only sensible thing and quit.
It was at this same point I had resigned my position that a lot of drama was happening here on DA. (Not exactly an abnormal thing, but it was unusually bad this time). I was originally just going to sit through it like I always do and wait 'til it blows over like it always does.
However, for whatever reason names were thrown around and opinions began to be spread and fights broke out. I won't go into this too much, because I'll be honest it was a long time ago and it was stupid. Plus it is completely irrelevant anymore.
And by this point I will be honest, I was fed up.
I was burned out from being worked to the bone, and fed up all the unnecessary drama here on DA and around this same time I was struck with a terrible case of writers/drawers/spriters block ever.
And long story short: An activity that I had previously enjoyed doing, something I had previously used as an outlet, My hobby. Became nothing but work, drama and plainly... Not fun.
That is why I decided to take the break.
I still have writers block pretty bad, but I am going to try and come back and be more active. ~TLDR:
I was burned out from both creating and being part of online drama. I Had/Still have a really bad case of writers block (A result from everything listed above).
However I have taken a break and I am going to try and be more active.
Thanks for reading.